What to do, what to do...

I need to learn this! Photo by Frank Hebbert. Used by Creative Commons License.

I try to always make my posts thoughtful, and hopefully thought-provoking. I try not to use my blog as a personal venting space, or spend time complaining. Today is an exception.

The two weeks have been a little tough. Some of it is the weather. I mean, could it possibly have rained any more?! Or been any grayer? I am so thrilled to finally see the sun.

Some of it was taxes. Yikes. Un-fun.

Most of it has to do with the fact that I have no project lined up after Godspell closes. Which is quickly approaching. (Our final 2 shows are this week! Get your tickets now!) That’s not exactly true, as I will be playing a wicked step-sister in Hedgerow’s Cinderella, but children’s theatre doesn’t quite “count” for me. At least not right now.

Not when I want something good. Something meaty. Something to work on.

Those of you that know me personally know that I don’t really handle down-time well. I like to go about 100 mph, always. I get bored easily. I thrive on pressure.

This is unhealthy. I do realize that. I just don’t necessarily want to do anything about it. Which is also unhealthy.

I think the correct response to this situation is to find the joy in the time off. To learn to relax.

And to use it to build the projects already started. The Audition Advantage pretty much got all of my attention one afternoon last week, and I got a lot done. There is definitely a lot more I could do for the business, our website, our contacts with a few days of concentrated effort. My own website (this one that you are on right now) could use some more work.

Actually, never mind, I have plenty to do. I just need to change my perspective. It’s not time off. It’s time to focus on other things.

Does anyone else get like this? There’s a lot of talk about work/life balance. But not a lot of talk for those of us who love our work, that it permeates our life and we’re OK with that.

I think a lot of artists and non-profit professionals fall into this description. It’s not work to us, it’s part of who we are. And when a part of that stops, it’s like a nullification of yourself. So, how do you handle time between projects? Do you freak? Re-focus? Relax?