For a few weeks now I've been encouraged, by both people in my life and the webinars and podcasts I listen to, to GET REAL. To really tell my story. To be honest. To let the not so pretty, or the downright ugly, parts show.
This is difficult. But, because I alway like to err on the side of vulnerability, I've decided to follow the Universe's signs and get real. So, here are some very real things about me.
1. 2013 was the toughest year ever. Emotionally and business-wise, I have never experienced so many challenges and obstacles. Between losing what I thought was going to be my dream job, living in a new place, starting a business with very little capital, not getting paid on a regular basis, creating new friendships and relationships, it has been a draining year. I'm very excited for 2014 to bring some forward momentum.
2. I feel like a fraud. Every day. I fear that the "fraud police", as Neil Gaiman calls them, will show up at my door to ask me just who I think I am to be teaching/coaching/creating/running a business. And I will have no answer.
3. I don't always feel as positive as I look. I was talking about all the different places I teach, and the ones I've added for the New Year, to a Pilates student the other day. She was surprised. She said from the peace and positivity I constantly radiate, she never would have guessed that I was always hustling, from one place to the next. To me, that was a huge compliment. But honestly, I don't always feel that peace.
Despite the fact that these 3 things are very true in my life, I choose not to dwell on them. I choose to "act as if" I am in control, at peace and moving forward. This is not just blind ignorance of my life. It's a choice to remain positive and keep going, even when things are difficult and draining. It's a belief in myself, my ideas, my passions that cannot be shaken by the problems I face.
No matter what 2013 looked like for you, try to "act as if" 2014 is YOUR year in your life, just for a moment, today. Let peace and empowerment fill you. And that moment will become an hour, become a day, a week, a month, a year, a life. Prepare internally. Then, we'll make it happen.